If only it were a dream

I can't ignore it anymore, I feel empty I feel... I feel warm I feel cold too A wave of emotions I know this feeling But still I choose to ignore I count myself a lucky man But am I really, "Dream and be delusional!" I try, I've tried it more than once Finally I am proof They were not talking to me I know but still I listen I call it a hobby but really I am a lucky man I have said that I do not need them Still though I do Why you ask I am an observer Not the... Not among the characters Of the story Right, I have none But to observe.